Oh Wish Do I

Oh wish do I, to speak your language of ancient tongue

Oh woe feel I, to be reduced to another one

How loathe am I! To seek you in your empty bed

To shed tears which go unshed

To love you for my own loves death

Oh shame to I!

Yet how to keep my love untainted?

How then, do I restrain?

How far must I retain?

In which a secret holds,

So far from my own mould?

How then! Cries I,

Do I go about this wicked way,

And leave off my mind to stray

And paint the world for a better day

How then!

For was our love not sunny gold?

A glow in me for eyes behold?

Did I not radiate my sinful tale

Of loves life that shorn unveiled?

How many did I hurt!

Cried I

By loving and just loving!

How many did I damage

By my unintentional longing?

And how then

Wonders I

Do I begin anew?

To love for love

And not the love of you

How then!

How!

Do I recompose this dread?

The dark spaces in my head?

To force it out with winters sun

And leave the trails all far undone

Do I stand and fight?

Shout, I want this life?

NO!

I yield and wait and see.

I watch and hope and dream

I love in the softest shade

To keep your mind comfortably at bay

To show you my changing need

To give you the time you must heed

To show you that I mean true to you

And true to me.

This is how my love doth grow